I talk a lot about spreading positivity, being happy and encouraging others. But I don't speak about other emotions like fear, sadness, loneliness, stress, and grief. As much as we don't want to go through these emotions, they are part of life. They have to wash over us untill we can feel okay again.
When I was eleven years old, my father died. I remember walking into the funeral home, and every part of me wanted to cry. A dear friend held me and said, "now is the time to be strong; Your mother needs you." So I didn't cry as much as I needed to. I carried that grief and the guilt of not crying for a very long time.
My family lost a loved one. They are going to walk into the funeral home today. I want to ease their pain. But I can't. All I can say is grieve is different for everyone. It's okay to feel whatever it is that you're feeling. It's okay not to be strong. I am here for you. You are not alone.